Tumblr for blackberry smartphones is obsolete.. After almost an hour of searching, it was fruitless.. :(

black-opal:

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私の胃が痛い..そして私は眠いです..私の腕は秀かゆみです..私は休憩を必要とする.. LOL

devious-otaku1013 asked: GET OUT OF TUMBLR!!!! I DON'T WANT YOU HERE!!! EFF YOU!!!!

ahhaha! tumblr ra btaw! waaah.. oh yeah, how to change the primary pic? lol! 

you’re already gone.. i can never have the chance of ever meeting you.. EVER.. goodbyes were so easy. for you.. i never had the chance to defend myself. it’s all gone.. i feel sick and i wanna die now.. i just lost faith.. lost it even more.. rain just made it worse

i hate it„ urgh.. 

it’s been a long time since i last dropped an entry here.. :)

there is definitely something wrong… but i just can’t point my fingers on where exactly it is.. =(

As i have noticed, on fb, there are lots of cliques present, like those who just post something and then  everyone reacts, even those not on the clique. I look at my fb and then, i forgot, i have no cliques, no constant comment buddy, no friends who post usually on my wall and no photos to tag me on. That’s life, well, that’s life i guess.. and it’s tough.. especially on me.. 

Since I can remember, I have been subjected to lots of mistreatments, lies and false hopes. As I often let my mind speak about everything that’s been done to me in the past, I know I can’t do anything about it anymore. I’ve had enough, sometimes, I ask myself why does God allow me to be subjected and treated horribly from people who i thought were my friends, yes, THOUGHT, am I so easy to ignore and be forgotten? I seem to think that I have no worth as a friend. Even before, I know that some of my so called friends do it on purpose to forget me. But still, I let that slide, because I know, payback would be a bitch. but now, I wonder, where is payback now? I have always been in this predicament for as long as I could remember. So, now I decided to blurt all that’s inside on this site.

At first, I could notice the blow-offs, the alibi’s and the other sudden plans. Well, people seem to think that I am stupid. When it comes to these things, I don’t give a damn about the excuses. Just a simple NO will suffice. I really hate it when false hopes are given like “next time” or “we will still see each other” crap. Like that’s something new. On my mind, I feel disgusted, because well, to be honest, i like to be the one who leaves last when everybody wants to leave first. I never expected that i would be literally left behind not just LEFT OUT.

I don’t know how could they sleep at night, like I ever did you wrong. What I wanted to know was why do it? Why leave me and go on plans on which I was certainly aware of. You know, for starters, there are privacy tools to keep others from knowing, like in photos, come on. Displaying them obviously is a slap in the face. Although I really don’t care, what bothers me is the questions people ask. “oh? were u close with them right? how come ur not hanging out with the.”, obviously the answer is “because they’re jerks and they find it easy to leave me out. “. I already have grown accustomed to the treatment. I just shut-up anout it and think of u and ur family being dead.

Until now, I am still treated this way, that’s why, I never trust anyone at all. I don’t want to get my feelings hurt and wouldn’t want expect some people to be there for me when i need them. I would just get sick and vomit if that ever would happen. I realized, I  have no friends.

All I EVER HAD WAS MYSELF..